Deliberations

No evening outing in Kahala last night. Instead, I procured a delicious salad for dinner at the fast food joint in Aina Haina once again. I also continued to compose the "blog" using the cheap "smartphone" while connected to the free wireless Net "hotspot." Of course, what was really on my mind is the upcoming decision to go homeless in style (i.e., motorhomelessness).

The real issue is that I do not fit into society-at-large. I have owned a townhouse and a condo, both of which were uncomfortable to me in a variety of ways. Debt slavery, of course, weighed heavily on my mind. However, I have no use for a "home." I simply need a place to sleep. I don't particularly care to sit all day in a "home" either. I can't even properly relax in a "home." Rental housing is another pathetic story. Renting a dump under any condition, be it a single room or a whole apartment, is the antithesis of a "home."

Driving a motor vehicle is taken for granted by the masses of empire. Rich or poor, if they can afford an automobile, they drive it everywhere. Paying $50 or $100 at the petrol pump every week is a given, a mindless activity at best. For me, a motor vehicle is an extremely costly luxury. Thus, a return to commuting every day by driving to Hawai'i Kai has been a real shock to me. It's not instinctive. So, I am extremely uncomfortable. Paying so much for petrol every week has been equally shocking.

Using any kind of phone has become alien to me. I just don't like talking on the device. The proliferation of cellphones and "smartphones" never sat well with me. Aside from the dislike of the devices, I am also not particularly pleased with being tetheted to costly service plans like a slave. For other people, a cellphone is necessity. Few would even question the need for the device. Thus, they will spend exorbitant sums of money for a premium "smartphone" and unlimited service plans. My limited $35 per month no-contract cellphone service plan was a shock to me. I cannot even bear to pay that amount because I do not use any of the services.

There are so many more examples of why I am a pariah. Essentially, I just don't fit in. My ways are diametrically opposed to the modern life-style of empire. I am not a rampant consumer. I am not inclined to follow fads or other social phenomena. I am also not a conformist, blind or otherwise. My only goal is to escape the snares of empire and society. Freedom is what I desperately seek.

Curiously, my homeless buddy is a pariah of sorts, too. He does not fit into society-at-large. He is homeless by choice, and not only because he wants to survive "on the cheap." He didn't care for the accommodations at the Chinatown dormitory even though it was far better than the Next Step homeless shelter. Oddly, my homeless buddy has never been one of the street homeless as far as I know. Prior to his time at Next Step, he slept in his old minivan that was parked in a church parking lot in Mano'a for several years. He really liked that minivan, he told me. Well, my homeless buddy isnow officially one of the street homeless (even though he is camping at the airport).

Well, I have been perusing the rental housing listings. Very disappointing. Only a handful of rooms were available for rent in the East O'ahu area. The rental situation is grim, but I have already predicted as much. I am currently in the best rental scenario, even though it is in Waimanalo. The only alternative is motorhomelessness. So be it. I will begin investigating any leads concerning undisturbed overnight parking for the homeless motorhome.

When my homeless buddy returns from Vietnam, he said that he wants to purchase a cheap "pre-owned" minivan and join me in motorhomelessness. I began to wonder whether I should purchase a "pre-owned" (read: used) minivan, but a late model. The idea is questionable because a minivan is usually the "family car" (i.e., offspring and pets as passengers). Of course, a new luxury minivan may be subject to crime and vandalism in the typical motorhomeless environment. More deliberations on the matter are required.

Usual Hawai'i Kai visit. No evening outing to Kahala. I was just too fatigued. By the way, the bus ride from Hawai'i Kai to Kahala takes 30 minutes one-way. Can you see why I have refrained from going there for the past few days. Aina Haina takes 20 minutes by bus, which isn't any better. Sadly, there isn't much of anything in Hawai'i Kai. I ended up at the "Mexican" fast food joint for an early dinner. So overpriced, so mediocre. And, a strange heatwave commenced sometime this afternoon. I was rendered even more groggy, so I returned to Waimanalo right after the lousy dinner.